NOTHING ABOVE, NOTHING BELOW
diluted
We have survived this life so far, but how far have we really come? What stops us from finally feeling complete? The time I have taken to myself has left me with the feeling that I may just be fine all alone. The leaves once green, now a fiery red, crackle underfoot as we make our way past the rotten pillars of our past discretions. I need this to be over. I know that now. Holding on to cold hands and sunken eyes hasn’t held the same charm as it once did. I am fast approaching my rebirth. No more childish dreams. No more adolescent desires. No more breath of fresh air. Leave me to my work. I am not like all the others.
My love and my hate for you are infinite.
May I walk through this hideous world without fear of regret. I shall consume the hate that consumes me. Let me wash away my pain and mistrust in the tears of those foolish enough to get in my way. I shall cut off the hand at the wrist and feed upon my master. None can be better. None will be stronger. No one will hold judgment over my head. I am the beacon, the forest fire, the tire yard set ablaze. I am the smoldering ember in the darkness that surrounds us all. This is my passion. This is my calling. This is my prison.This is me.
My love and my hate for you are infinite.
why is love so disastrous?
What if we tried? Why is love so disastrous?
What if we survived? Would it change anything?
Most Days we watch our best friends die.
We try just to understand why but…
My machine gun interrupts any such questioning.
It’s hard to look to heaven when these bombs keep falling.
Is god’s will really murder flooding the streets?
Can we measure her love by the oil underneath?
All I ever wanted was what I was told I was owed.
At what cost? I’ll never know.
These young hearts rigged to explode.
Most days we watch our best friends die.
These young hearts do what they’re told.
Sit back and watch the whole world burn.
I tried to say goodbye, but the bombs got louder.
I thought I heard you cry, but the bombs got louder.
I screamed my prayers at the sky, but the bombs got louder.
I lost my faith in faith.
These young hearts rigged to explode.
These young hearts do what they’re told.
Everything I ever knew is falling apart.
It makes me sick, these things we’ve done.
In my heart I know we’re all damned.
hate unconditional
Call me out on it.
I may not look like all the others
That you fucking hate.
Fall into a clouded dream I had once.
No, I never doubted that we were all
Forced to deliver unfounded
Unconditional love. There’s just something about it,
That I fucking hate.
I’m a Lexapro at feeling down.
I’m so Percocet in my ways,
Although I’ve tried to deny it.
The pain I’ve caused always set in stone.
The pain I’ve cause always made me whole.
The pain I’ve cause always set in stone.
The pain I’ve caused is worth it’s weight in gold.
1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8
I lost track of the pills we ate.
Shoved down my throat to save my soul,
I threw you up to keep me cold.
I never asked for your love, you can keep your love.
One step closer to the edge
Means one less demon lives inside my head.
The collective time that I’ve sacrificed,
This body is broke but still never satisfied.
Well I’ve tried and I’ve tried and I’ve tried and I’ve tried and I tried.
And now on my own I’ve finally realized
That it’s under my skin. It’s creeping in.
You’d never believe the fucking state I’m in.
Cause I hate the hate, I hate the hate, but my hate…
Is all I have.
choke on one another
D.E.S.T.R.U.C.T.I.O.N. is my only god.
Burn my love notes cause I’m off to heaven.
Sell my lungs and bury my black eyes.
Smoke signals marking where our trails end.
I’m such a Xanax flavored waste of time.
My pain is safe and sound. You’ll be the end of me.
Forgiveness just brings me down.
Hypnotizing, Paralyzing, Awe inspiring, Sterilizing, Annihilation of our lies.
Fill our heads with the ashes of our empire.
I’m not the type to ever compromise.
Charred disciples stapled to the ceiling.
Staring down makes you forget there’s sky.
Genuflect before the king of the runaways.
The clever kids left the stage behind.
I never fell for the superficial noisefuck.
Take my hand, let’s set this world on fire.
Power, there’s so much power, in realizing that you’re going to die. Solace, I’ll never find it. Until our lungs deflate for the very last time.
Hey bright eyes heard you wanted to try on some death. I got a knife that looks just your size.
Tick Tock Baby your time is up, Big Bad Baby no one gives a fuck.
where are my fucking pills?
Paranoid, so paranoid, shut it out, I’m on self-destruct.
I can’t deal with the pains in my head.
Medicate the suffocation with bullshit arrogance.
I’m in love with a suicide.
In too deep is just a state of mind.
Self-sedation is my fucking 9 to 5
With a death obsession working overtime.
I can’t get clean, some scars won’t leave, I won’t come clean.
Paranoid, feed the void, running low, I’m so fucking weak.
Shit gets real when your friends end up dead.
Lying in a puddle on the side of the bed.
But nothing says I love you like a capital crime.
Praying for injection instead of 25.
I can’t take this fucking noose on my neck.
Barbiturate, Percocet, caffeinated suspect.
I’m in love with my suicide.
Playing the victim’s such a waste of time.
Medicating to keep yourself alive,
When autopilot drug sick kicks into overdrive.
I won’t come clean, no I won’t come clean.
Paranoid, just feed the void, shut it out, this mic’s set to stun.
I can’t deal with the pains in my head.
Medicate the suffocation with bullshit arrogance.
I’m in love with a suicide.
In too deep is just a state of mind.
But I can come clean,
You can trust me.
Rest your hopes on my lips and taste my venom,
Let my sorrow weigh you down and feed upon you.
Rest your hopes and your dreams on my lips,
Let my narrows weigh you down and feed upon you.
end of life
Let me speak, there’s some things I thought you should know.
When you breathe, i feel a heart attack coming on.
And I can’t wait to watch the world slip away.
When I leave attach a piece of you to my ghost.
Cause I can’t stray too far from the one that I love.
If they grieve I’ll send a sign to let them know,
That I was okay to watch it all disappear.
I’m not afraid of the fight, I’m just afraid of the fall.
When I look up at the sky, I see it all crashing down. On and on…
And it breaks you,
And it aches to the bone.
Time heals nothing it just buries the wound.
Why should I learn to accept when I have nothing to prove?
So if time means nothing why do we still watch our clocks count down?
My chest is empty, and yet they want me to talk.
This face holds nothing, there’s no emotion to grasp.
I’ve lost my faith, and now I am shattered like glass.
I need to feel something else, I need to feel something else. I wanna to feel something, I wanna to feel something else. I wanna feel.
When you leave, it’s like a heart attack letting go.
hell all-american
I want nothing more than to see your smile fade.
Flood the hall with original sin.
I know what it is to be in love with loneliness.
I’ve come to grips with my malcontent and
Channeled rage is a cause I can stand behind.
So mow ‘em down cause they don’t mean shit.
Take my lead, just stay asleep, cause honesty is…
Such a let down.
I took all the drugs that guaranteed my normalcy.
I took a swim in their disappointment.
Cause no one cares til your pain becomes lucrative.
So give ‘em hell, cause ‘em pain, make ‘em hurt.
Sell your soul for a piece of Hollywood
And listen close to a million hearts breaking.
Your hopes and your dreams
Are ripped at the seams.
They’re bought and they’re sold to the highest bidder.
You’re soaked in regret.
You’re taught to accept
That your world is in debt to the highest bidder.
I can’t control what my heart tells my head, if my heart tells my head that it needs to destroy everything in its path. Cause my love will tear your pretty little head from it’s neck.
You’re soaked in regret.
You’re taught to accept
That your world is in debt to the highest bidder.
Officer, no officer no…
Off with their heads.
hypnotic spells
I am on my way.
(5,4,3,2,1.)
I’ve been having overwhelming bouts of sadness and self-harming.
My depression’s unimpressive; It stems from stress or so they tell me.
Heart’s on fire, yet uninspired, I guess I’m preaching to the choir.
Pessimistic, narcissistic, introspective hate required.
My obsession with contrition leaves me weak and feeling tired.
My subconscious has no conscience. Stay asleep; it’s how I’m wired.
Single serving, I’m self-serving a thousand milligrams of quiet.
Showing signs of drug behavior. I’m so fucked up but I’m feeling fine.
fantastic bastards
We’re never good enough.
Except when you’ve had too much
To drink, to think, to care.
These broken bones go nice
With that light you hate to see me in.
Cause it sings, “I’m a mess" when we touch.
Don’t fucking touch me.
Take care of everyone
Except for those that cared for you.
But it’s fine, they don’t mind, cause they know you’re a fuck.
I hate every thing I do
Cause I learned it from you.
I’m your bastard.
But I’m not anything like you.
No, I’m fantastic…
But I’m still not worth your time.
I’m so sick of covering up
These blacks and blues and cuts.
Cause they’re mine, to define, but they don’t, because I'm more than your worst.
I’ve finally had enough.
And I’m finally all grown up.
So this time, your all mine, you look scared, cause you know I’m a fuck.
Sirens, sirens, sirens come and take me away.
underneath it all
No matter what I do to you, it’s never enough to break you.
The respect is gone, and the taste is lost.
I brushed it off, when I felt you come.
The things we knew, or thought we knew.
The place we go, every time we’re pushed.
Let’s grow old…
I’m empty. I feel nothing. Yet I feel everything.
The times we had, the loves we lost.
I needed more, than could be bought.
In spite of me, in spite of you.
I felt it all, coursing through…
Let’s grow old, and let the good die young.
I unravel in waves of red.
Full fledged and litmus tested.
My carnage wears shades of blue.
I’m forced to conceal this side of you.
But it opened up both my eyes
To false gods and shameless pride.
Let’s grow old, and let the good die young.
There’s no sun here only false starts.
Living free with robotic parts.
Killing time with a heart of gold.
Poor living until a dream I stole.
I’m unscathed cause those dogs don’t bite.
Fuck faith if hate gets paid.
Let’s grow old, and let the good die young.
I won’t give in to you.
I unravel in waves of red.
Full fledged and litmus tested.
My carnage wears shades of brown.
I’m forced to contain this side of you.
But it opened up both my eyes
To false gods and shameless pride.
Let’s grow old, and let the good die young.
I burn bright in razor wire.
I like to fuck but my love gets tired.
They’re milky white but they smell like shit.
Full framed and their numbers unlisted.
The cross I bear is alkaline.
The sleep I lost built a nice dream house.
Let’s grow old, and let the good die young.
i don’t know much, but i know i loathe you
Yeah I’ve got some scars locked up inside.
At night I curl up to them and hide.
I feel the blood behind my face.
It’s cold as hell. I’m cold as hell.
You make a piss poor shadow of
A son, a man, a fighter.
You make a piss poor shadow of
A wife, a friend, a lover.
I keep my heart tied to a lie.
I feel at rest when others cry.
I know at best I’m just a 6…
But we’re pushing 12 when our fevers mix.
I don’t much care what people say.
I’ll find my path in my own way.
I’ve done my time and I’ve had my share.
And I’m bored as hell…I’m bored as hell.
Show me a sign.
Show me the way down.
I swear it’s real, cause to me it’s real.
I found my pulse and it’s even keeled.
This truth it leaks out from my mouth.
Just know this love will last for…Always. and Always I’ll wait.
I gave up chasing anything,
It comes to me or it’s dead to me.
I know more than I thought I knew.
I feel at home in black and blue.
Yeah I’ve got some scars locked up inside.
At night I curl up to them and hide.
I feel the blood behind my face.
It’s cold as hell, and I’m cold as hell.
This world is broke. Aren’t I?
This world is broke and so are we.
diluted
We have survived this life so far, but how far have we really come? What stops us from finally feeling complete? The time I have taken to myself has left me with the feeling that I may just be fine all alone. The leaves once green, now a fiery red, crackle underfoot as we make our way past the rotten pillars of our past discretions. I need this to be over. I know that now. Holding on to cold hands and sunken eyes hasn’t held the same charm as it once did. I am fast approaching my rebirth. No more childish dreams. No more adolescent desires. No more breath of fresh air. Leave me to my work. I am not like all the others.
My love and my hate for you are infinite.
May I walk through this hideous world without fear of regret. I shall consume the hate that consumes me. Let me wash away my pain and mistrust in the tears of those foolish enough to get in my way. I shall cut off the hand at the wrist and feed upon my master. None can be better. None will be stronger. No one will hold judgment over my head. I am the beacon, the forest fire, the tire yard set ablaze. I am the smoldering ember in the darkness that surrounds us all. This is my passion. This is my calling. This is my prison.This is me.
My love and my hate for you are infinite.
why is love so disastrous?
What if we tried? Why is love so disastrous?
What if we survived? Would it change anything?
Most Days we watch our best friends die.
We try just to understand why but…
My machine gun interrupts any such questioning.
It’s hard to look to heaven when these bombs keep falling.
Is god’s will really murder flooding the streets?
Can we measure her love by the oil underneath?
All I ever wanted was what I was told I was owed.
At what cost? I’ll never know.
These young hearts rigged to explode.
Most days we watch our best friends die.
These young hearts do what they’re told.
Sit back and watch the whole world burn.
I tried to say goodbye, but the bombs got louder.
I thought I heard you cry, but the bombs got louder.
I screamed my prayers at the sky, but the bombs got louder.
I lost my faith in faith.
These young hearts rigged to explode.
These young hearts do what they’re told.
Everything I ever knew is falling apart.
It makes me sick, these things we’ve done.
In my heart I know we’re all damned.
hate unconditional
Call me out on it.
I may not look like all the others
That you fucking hate.
Fall into a clouded dream I had once.
No, I never doubted that we were all
Forced to deliver unfounded
Unconditional love. There’s just something about it,
That I fucking hate.
I’m a Lexapro at feeling down.
I’m so Percocet in my ways,
Although I’ve tried to deny it.
The pain I’ve caused always set in stone.
The pain I’ve cause always made me whole.
The pain I’ve cause always set in stone.
The pain I’ve caused is worth it’s weight in gold.
1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8
I lost track of the pills we ate.
Shoved down my throat to save my soul,
I threw you up to keep me cold.
I never asked for your love, you can keep your love.
One step closer to the edge
Means one less demon lives inside my head.
The collective time that I’ve sacrificed,
This body is broke but still never satisfied.
Well I’ve tried and I’ve tried and I’ve tried and I’ve tried and I tried.
And now on my own I’ve finally realized
That it’s under my skin. It’s creeping in.
You’d never believe the fucking state I’m in.
Cause I hate the hate, I hate the hate, but my hate…
Is all I have.
choke on one another
D.E.S.T.R.U.C.T.I.O.N. is my only god.
Burn my love notes cause I’m off to heaven.
Sell my lungs and bury my black eyes.
Smoke signals marking where our trails end.
I’m such a Xanax flavored waste of time.
My pain is safe and sound. You’ll be the end of me.
Forgiveness just brings me down.
Hypnotizing, Paralyzing, Awe inspiring, Sterilizing, Annihilation of our lies.
Fill our heads with the ashes of our empire.
I’m not the type to ever compromise.
Charred disciples stapled to the ceiling.
Staring down makes you forget there’s sky.
Genuflect before the king of the runaways.
The clever kids left the stage behind.
I never fell for the superficial noisefuck.
Take my hand, let’s set this world on fire.
Power, there’s so much power, in realizing that you’re going to die. Solace, I’ll never find it. Until our lungs deflate for the very last time.
Hey bright eyes heard you wanted to try on some death. I got a knife that looks just your size.
Tick Tock Baby your time is up, Big Bad Baby no one gives a fuck.
where are my fucking pills?
Paranoid, so paranoid, shut it out, I’m on self-destruct.
I can’t deal with the pains in my head.
Medicate the suffocation with bullshit arrogance.
I’m in love with a suicide.
In too deep is just a state of mind.
Self-sedation is my fucking 9 to 5
With a death obsession working overtime.
I can’t get clean, some scars won’t leave, I won’t come clean.
Paranoid, feed the void, running low, I’m so fucking weak.
Shit gets real when your friends end up dead.
Lying in a puddle on the side of the bed.
But nothing says I love you like a capital crime.
Praying for injection instead of 25.
I can’t take this fucking noose on my neck.
Barbiturate, Percocet, caffeinated suspect.
I’m in love with my suicide.
Playing the victim’s such a waste of time.
Medicating to keep yourself alive,
When autopilot drug sick kicks into overdrive.
I won’t come clean, no I won’t come clean.
Paranoid, just feed the void, shut it out, this mic’s set to stun.
I can’t deal with the pains in my head.
Medicate the suffocation with bullshit arrogance.
I’m in love with a suicide.
In too deep is just a state of mind.
But I can come clean,
You can trust me.
Rest your hopes on my lips and taste my venom,
Let my sorrow weigh you down and feed upon you.
Rest your hopes and your dreams on my lips,
Let my narrows weigh you down and feed upon you.
end of life
Let me speak, there’s some things I thought you should know.
When you breathe, i feel a heart attack coming on.
And I can’t wait to watch the world slip away.
When I leave attach a piece of you to my ghost.
Cause I can’t stray too far from the one that I love.
If they grieve I’ll send a sign to let them know,
That I was okay to watch it all disappear.
I’m not afraid of the fight, I’m just afraid of the fall.
When I look up at the sky, I see it all crashing down. On and on…
And it breaks you,
And it aches to the bone.
Time heals nothing it just buries the wound.
Why should I learn to accept when I have nothing to prove?
So if time means nothing why do we still watch our clocks count down?
My chest is empty, and yet they want me to talk.
This face holds nothing, there’s no emotion to grasp.
I’ve lost my faith, and now I am shattered like glass.
I need to feel something else, I need to feel something else. I wanna to feel something, I wanna to feel something else. I wanna feel.
When you leave, it’s like a heart attack letting go.
hell all-american
I want nothing more than to see your smile fade.
Flood the hall with original sin.
I know what it is to be in love with loneliness.
I’ve come to grips with my malcontent and
Channeled rage is a cause I can stand behind.
So mow ‘em down cause they don’t mean shit.
Take my lead, just stay asleep, cause honesty is…
Such a let down.
I took all the drugs that guaranteed my normalcy.
I took a swim in their disappointment.
Cause no one cares til your pain becomes lucrative.
So give ‘em hell, cause ‘em pain, make ‘em hurt.
Sell your soul for a piece of Hollywood
And listen close to a million hearts breaking.
Your hopes and your dreams
Are ripped at the seams.
They’re bought and they’re sold to the highest bidder.
You’re soaked in regret.
You’re taught to accept
That your world is in debt to the highest bidder.
I can’t control what my heart tells my head, if my heart tells my head that it needs to destroy everything in its path. Cause my love will tear your pretty little head from it’s neck.
You’re soaked in regret.
You’re taught to accept
That your world is in debt to the highest bidder.
Officer, no officer no…
Off with their heads.
hypnotic spells
I am on my way.
(5,4,3,2,1.)
I’ve been having overwhelming bouts of sadness and self-harming.
My depression’s unimpressive; It stems from stress or so they tell me.
Heart’s on fire, yet uninspired, I guess I’m preaching to the choir.
Pessimistic, narcissistic, introspective hate required.
My obsession with contrition leaves me weak and feeling tired.
My subconscious has no conscience. Stay asleep; it’s how I’m wired.
Single serving, I’m self-serving a thousand milligrams of quiet.
Showing signs of drug behavior. I’m so fucked up but I’m feeling fine.
fantastic bastards
We’re never good enough.
Except when you’ve had too much
To drink, to think, to care.
These broken bones go nice
With that light you hate to see me in.
Cause it sings, “I’m a mess" when we touch.
Don’t fucking touch me.
Take care of everyone
Except for those that cared for you.
But it’s fine, they don’t mind, cause they know you’re a fuck.
I hate every thing I do
Cause I learned it from you.
I’m your bastard.
But I’m not anything like you.
No, I’m fantastic…
But I’m still not worth your time.
I’m so sick of covering up
These blacks and blues and cuts.
Cause they’re mine, to define, but they don’t, because I'm more than your worst.
I’ve finally had enough.
And I’m finally all grown up.
So this time, your all mine, you look scared, cause you know I’m a fuck.
Sirens, sirens, sirens come and take me away.
underneath it all
No matter what I do to you, it’s never enough to break you.
The respect is gone, and the taste is lost.
I brushed it off, when I felt you come.
The things we knew, or thought we knew.
The place we go, every time we’re pushed.
Let’s grow old…
I’m empty. I feel nothing. Yet I feel everything.
The times we had, the loves we lost.
I needed more, than could be bought.
In spite of me, in spite of you.
I felt it all, coursing through…
Let’s grow old, and let the good die young.
I unravel in waves of red.
Full fledged and litmus tested.
My carnage wears shades of blue.
I’m forced to conceal this side of you.
But it opened up both my eyes
To false gods and shameless pride.
Let’s grow old, and let the good die young.
There’s no sun here only false starts.
Living free with robotic parts.
Killing time with a heart of gold.
Poor living until a dream I stole.
I’m unscathed cause those dogs don’t bite.
Fuck faith if hate gets paid.
Let’s grow old, and let the good die young.
I won’t give in to you.
I unravel in waves of red.
Full fledged and litmus tested.
My carnage wears shades of brown.
I’m forced to contain this side of you.
But it opened up both my eyes
To false gods and shameless pride.
Let’s grow old, and let the good die young.
I burn bright in razor wire.
I like to fuck but my love gets tired.
They’re milky white but they smell like shit.
Full framed and their numbers unlisted.
The cross I bear is alkaline.
The sleep I lost built a nice dream house.
Let’s grow old, and let the good die young.
i don’t know much, but i know i loathe you
Yeah I’ve got some scars locked up inside.
At night I curl up to them and hide.
I feel the blood behind my face.
It’s cold as hell. I’m cold as hell.
You make a piss poor shadow of
A son, a man, a fighter.
You make a piss poor shadow of
A wife, a friend, a lover.
I keep my heart tied to a lie.
I feel at rest when others cry.
I know at best I’m just a 6…
But we’re pushing 12 when our fevers mix.
I don’t much care what people say.
I’ll find my path in my own way.
I’ve done my time and I’ve had my share.
And I’m bored as hell…I’m bored as hell.
Show me a sign.
Show me the way down.
I swear it’s real, cause to me it’s real.
I found my pulse and it’s even keeled.
This truth it leaks out from my mouth.
Just know this love will last for…Always. and Always I’ll wait.
I gave up chasing anything,
It comes to me or it’s dead to me.
I know more than I thought I knew.
I feel at home in black and blue.
Yeah I’ve got some scars locked up inside.
At night I curl up to them and hide.
I feel the blood behind my face.
It’s cold as hell, and I’m cold as hell.
This world is broke. Aren’t I?
This world is broke and so are we.